Got an early night shift finish but don't have to go to work till later on tomorow as I'm in for an MRI scan on my eye & it dawned on me what Jane said the other day. "What happens if they find a tumor?"

I wasn't really thinking about it, but from a phone call on my break from work, one of her friends has found out she has cancer. How do you live with that? I know I've done something to my eye that makes it go funny double vision when i'm tired, but I have special glasses to compensate when I need them. I work with flour at work so I don't like wearing them due to getting messed with the blasted stuff & I can go 12-16 hours without them. Back in August I was just days away from getting corrective surgery but it was cancelled on at the last moment. Jane gets the feeling that there not telling me something until the results from my scan comes back. If the worse comes to that & they find something along the lines of that I'll be in "F**k it!!" mode as I've had some crap happen to me in the past few years & not letting this effect my life.

I've got the scan late monday & back to the eye specialists on thursday afternoon & Jane is tagging along to see whats happening. Still it's not effecting my gaming :-P