Okay, so little background here: I've had a difficult week last week. Lots of things happened that I wish I could easily erase from my memory, but since I am a rational being I can't. So I've been coping with everything that's going on...and my mind has now reached its peak point where it can no longer handle listening to problems. So since this is my blog, I have come here to rationalize my problems...or at least emprison them in just a paragraph of words.

Here are my deals:

Best Friend: Up until tonight has been fine. She and her boyfriend for 5 years broke up. I say good riddance. So, seeing as how that's an ubber long time to have a relationship she gets upset. It's understandable. She tells me to help her out in getting over him. Last week was tough because she was a constant sob fest but this week hasn't been so bad. Then today she sent me a text telling me she hates him and how she wants to stop loving him and wanting to see him. Now I'm realistic. Of course, the easy answer would be then just friggen do it. Stop loving him and stop wanting to see him. Of course, knowing how long the relationship has gone on she probably has no desire to hear an answer like that. So I texted her a different answer which was sort of beating around the bush. She gets put out and texts me back an ubber long text telling me that I have no idea what I'm talking about. Well excuse the flan outta me! I'm only trying to help and she doesn't appreciate it. So I give up on that friggen job. She's expecting me to both be a Strategy Guide and a Psychiatrist while simotaneously maintaining my sanity in everything ELSE that is happening in my life. So am I frustrated?!?!? YES!! You know what though? I'm done caring. Because I can't seem to give her adequate advice and/or she can't seem to be open to taking it when she comes begging for it. I AM NOT A PSYCHIATRIST!!!

Next situation

Parents: There are certain times that children disagree with their parents. Lately my parents have been antagonizing me on what I spend my money on. Last week my dad threw a fit because I bought my PS2 (six months ago mind you) with money that I earned at my job cleaning up poop and other things that would normally cause someone to upchuck! I see NO REASON why someone need bug me about this. Then today, I told my mom how I received three paychecks from work and one of them was close to 400 dollars because of vacation time I didn't take last year. My mom told me "I hope you spend it on something worthwhile and don't nickel and dime it all away." It is MY HARD EARNED MONEY! I DO WHATEVER I WANT WITH IT AND IT IS NOT THEIR CONCERN! The only time it should cause concern is if there's a suspicion on drugs or something, but there isn't! My parents know that. So what is their problem? I don't have any bills I have to pay up..and I've got things I would like to buy...so why shouldn't I? Perhaps all you adults could give me an answer to this one. It STILL puzzles me...and this conflict has gone on for three months! Sometimes I wish they would just butt out!!

Next situation:

School: I'm kicked out of BIOLA officially now so I am trying to figure everything out as far as school is concerned. I have done my placement tests and have gone to orientation and now am needing to make appointments with counsellors so I can negotiate higher placement and figure out exactly how to register. This isn't a extremely troubling situation, albeit is difficult though. ESPECIALLY since I am doing this on my own. Parents haven't done anything with it except nag me on trifles! Like, how am I going to pay for it. I suppose I'll probably spend my hard earned money don't you think?! It's not THAT expensive to attend a community college. It's certainly within my income brackets.

Next:

Work: Is in the process of being under new management. The old assistant manager was great and personable, but she got promoted to a manager at a different store. So now we have a new one...and...welll... The new one is very much of a stickler. He is perfectionistic and talks down to people. I still love my job with the dogs...but dealing with a dog of a supervisor is making my job a great big pit of Hades. It's stressful to have to come to work and deal with all that's happening in my life right now..not to mention dealing with a jerk of a supervisor. My parents said to find a better job, but honestly I don't think I'll find another part time job that offers benefits. I'm stuck there for now.

And lastly:

Family (in a broader sense): One of my older cousin had a really bad seizure today. She is married with two girls and hasn't had a seizure since before she got married. Today she had one and beat her face up pretty bad. Thankfully her husband heard from upstairs her making moaning noises from her mouth during the seizure and recognized automatically that she was having one. The noise she made was the same one she made when he had seen her have one in college. So I'm thankful that her husband was so vilgilant to help her out...but she has not been on medication since she was 14 because she could not handle the side effects. She's been on a dietary treatment and its worked well up until now. She is saying she will probably have to go back onto the medication again...but she is nervous about the side effects. Not only due to past experiences, but because she is currently breast feeding. She doesn't want to harm her baby in the process. My extended family is all praying for her and her family...but it's something that is certainly weighing me down.

I was telling the boy about everything that was going on with me and he simply said "sounds like you need a vacation". I would love one! If anything right now though, I want no one to be condescending to me. Lest, I fear for the consquences.