My boy left today for Ghana. I thought I could hold myself together and be strong for him leaving but I couldn't. It's been a long time since we haven't seen each other for an extended period of time. We had no trouble with it before because we were able to at least remain in contact through the phone calls.

Since he's overseas though, I can't just right up and call him. Or text him for that matter. No telling what kind of charges might come up...or even better, if his phone even WORKS. I talked to him today before his boarding call and experienced one of those moments everyone dreads. You know in those movies where it shows the tension of someone having to leave and they have to embrace their loved one.

I only wish I had been able to embrace my boy.
And at the very least have him give me an encouraging hug to help push me to believe everything would be fine.

He told me he would email me when he had his layover in London. Apparently he has about an hour and a half layover there so we'll see. I'm still clicking my mailbox waiting for an email and hoping and praying he made it to London without much trouble.

Apart from the anixiety I've been feeling all day, I got in major trouble at work today.

I would rather no explain it, but I will say that I was given a Final warning at work.

I might just outright put in my two weeks. I need something that is not as stressful.
Something that I can at least enjoy what I do....and not get in trouble for stuff that I do.
Or have a nit picky boss who just NOW, after I've worked there a year, is bringing stuff up in the way I approach things that he doesn't agree with..whatever.

The good thing about all this stress from work is that if anything, my dad has finally opened up. He told me today that no job is worth the amount of stress I'm giving it. To top that off, he hugged me and told me he loved me and was proud of what I'm doing (going to school fulltime, working part time and still having enough energy to deal with the in between). He even told me to find a different job...or take a break and find a new job. Because the way he saw it I wasn't doing anything wrong either. I told my dad thanks for his input and support. I don't know why it is, but usually my dad and I don't get along and yet tonight he was very quiet, cautious and careful and caring. He didn't seem like himself at all.

I really would appreciate a break from work.:)
The boy said he wants to take me to a beach and to the zoo and such.
I don't know how well that'd work out with my parents...but I think I deserve it.:)

I got all of my grades for school back.
English-C
Collegiate Chorale-A
US History-B
Karate-A
Theater-A

I about jumped outta my seat when I saw my history grade after being frustrated with my history class last semester and the semester before. But oh well..

I hope you are all doing well!
Take care of yourselves!