I logged onto my email today after sleeping really really really long.
I saw I had 4 new emails and 2 new bulk emails.

Here's the catch though...
ALL the emails had to do with my fanfiction on fanfiction.net.

I was added to a favorite authors list and put on alert for when I write anything more on my fanfiction.
I had my story added onto the favorite stories as well.

That was great and all...however--

I was surprised to see a review from someone of the name of BadMajik on there. I figured my story was simply something that fans of Final Fantasy VII would enjoy, but I seemed to have reached over the barrier of that and reached to the non-Final Fantasy VII fans. I read this and felt my heart jump. It made me very excited.

"Redkenny I am loving this. I am no fan of the FF series and although i did play FF7 to be honest it doesnt mean much to me when compared to your tale. I love the descriptions in your story and its gripping - I just sat and read each chapter in succession.

I love the way your mind works on the page and I cannot wait to get my teeth into the next episode."

Apparently I am underestimating myself here. I suppose it's just the way someone of an art thinks. They don't particularly believe that their work is all that good. I've seen it with my friends as well as with movies and stuff...artists can look at their art and even when it's great, they will always find imperfections. It's just their nature. Nothing really ever ends up perfect, but more like "i cannot make this any better without completely screwing up the way I intend it to come out."

So from my perspective, looking at my fanfiction is always just like "this could be fixed...I don't think people will understand this..." I could expose so many things that I myself would not enjoy..but then you come to a place where you go, "there can't be any way to make this better without completely messing up the over all meaning".

And then it turns out for the readers that your mistake ridden writing is admirable, gripping, descriptive and new.
And it makes you feel all the blood and sweat you put forth in making the chapters work comes to rest.
And you enjoy it.

So i'm going to go enjoy my day and hold my head high.
Because I can write so well that people who have no interest in it, would be interested.